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#340

I think I am high. It is impossible if I think otherwise. I am so high right now that I actually am thinking of tying a thick rope from one HDB flat to the other, and zipping with a clothes hanger is so damn fun (and possible). And you know what... I actually have a pretty long rope stashed at the corner of my storeroom.

Two tall glasses of Coke and comedy acts by Russell Peters, followed by medicine is a deadly concoction. 

Okay, I am definitely not thinking straight.

By the way, I just realised that my birthday is so freaking nearing. Is it weird to say that I am not ready to turn 21?

#339

I am taking a break (before school starts next week).

#338

This is the laziest weekend I have ever had in a long time. And I'm not exactly enjoying it...

#337

Facebook should have a dislike button for its pages too. That would be interesting, to see whether the page will have more 'dislike's than 'like's. 

#336

You are like the cool night breeze that brushes me gently as I overlook the panoramic view of the calm dazzling city from the top of a 90-storey building.

I’m so close to the moon and the bright stars are blinding my eyes, but yet I am so far from the sky, just like how far I am away from you and all your action even when we are in the same room, breathing the same air. 

Taking the effort to move closer to you now, I am persistently rethinking my decision which I took forever to make, for I treasure you and the relationship we share now. 

Fear is not something to be ashamed of, I truly know, but when it comes to growing this relationship into a stronger one, I’m regretful for not trying earlier. 

So, what am I truly afraid of - the thought of losing you, or failing in front of you?

#335

Should I close my eyes to the issues that are happening around this world, like what I have been doing all this time? Will this make me feel as though these problems will disappear, or even better, not exist? Sometimes you want to do so much, but you don't know how to. Or perhaps I haven't been trying hard enough.

Why does Wednesday feel like Thursday? Reflections are meant to be done on Thursdays.

#334

Actually I have no idea how I ended up here on my blog. I have nothing to blog about. 

Well, perhaps, I was intrigued by the stream of thoughts that have been trailing all around in my head after reading a book on egoism. Since then, I have been questioning every single act of mine - Is this a display of egoism? 

It is not that bad, because it gets me thinking instead of making me feel guilty of being self-centred. Well, I have surpassed the point of ever being guilty of my acts. This question is in fact a form of self-reflection of who I have become and I have learnt a lot about myself this past few days. 

This whole topic of life and its meaning is far too great for me to dissect and digest, but taking one step at a time is the perfect way to go for now (although I have been slow in doing so). What I have realised now is that there is more to life than a piece of paper which might take you to great heights in career but perhaps not in life. 

Because there is something called dream that will always push us to achieve what we laid out or at least give our best shot in every way possible, even without that piece of paper. What is important now is to take in and secure the memories of every single moment of this life so that I know and truly believe that this life is worth every second of its time here on Earth.

#333

And pls tell me one more time, why was I so excited for the World Cup finals... This is a terrible finals for World Cup... And that referee needs to be given a lesson on giving out yellow cards. Okay, perhaps he was doing his job most of the time, but I'm sure the players can make use without yellow card and just warning.

Jesus Nevas is the man of the match, with apparent suave moves and for once, someone thought through before passing the ball to someone. And his eyes sparkle! =)

Oh, btw, soccer is the only place where you can dive and never drown! WOW! Okay, I'm entertaining myself to make up for this freaking boring match.

Perhaps it is a strategic move on both sides to just go for penalty shoot outs, but damn, this is the finals. Can't they give us a reason to enjoy the final match? 

#332

I have decided a long time ago that I will not be involved in matters that don't bother me directly. What's the point of getting mad over these problems that has almost nothing to do with my life? Yes, they are my family. But, wth, I have my own problems to deal with, no?

I have suffered once for thinking too much about another's problem, which I thought would affect my life in the future. I forgot that my life is my life is my life. So, well, whatever people. And whatever, mom.

I think I need to create a tag called 'Family'. Too many drama, man.

#331

What's with social norms?
Where did these even begin?
Who said that life is supposed to be led this way?

Who wrote the rules?
I doubt God did.
So, there are no reasons for me to follow them.

It sucks to be a girl.
It is even worse,
to be born into a family with stringent traditions.

I've decided on one thing tonight.
I will pave my life,
and I will make decisions for myself and none of you.

But, will it all be worthwhile to throw it all away?
I don't want to be a selfish person,
for I am still living for their happiness.